lonliness in high places.

i wonder if God was ever lonely.
ppl say that when u're in high places u tend to be alone.
cos no one else can climb as high as u.

i think that being in a high place really suxs.
when u fall its really painful.
and when u're high everyone can see u.
they can see u when u sneeze, they see u when u cry.
they see u when u decide to have a sinful piece of chocolate
instead of green leafy vegetables.
they see u when u make the biggest mistakes.
and say.
hey! u're up there, u're high. how dare u make mistakes.
u have failed and therefore u are not worthy.
u are not supposed to be where u are.
then men shove u arnd.
they make u a mockery of what u have done.
they say that u are like dirt which deserves only to be in the pits of hell.

sometimes when it gets too tough.
u just wanna give up.. and move on to a place where ppl understand u.
but ur excuse is always,
well, no one really understands me.
no one gets my needs
u know? im different.
im not the same.
im special in a sort of way which no one understands.
u? u have evil in ur heart.
u say u're hearing but not listening.
u're here only cos u have to be.
u're here only cos u were called.
go away u heartless evil ppl.
i dont need u.
im special.
im different.
and no one understands me..
only i understand me.
so dont talk to me as if u know what i am
who i am
who i was called to be.
if u know.. then mebbe u shld be God
but u're not.
so just leave me.